I will become cold 
a heat sink for the Earth 
I will shiver and become unresponsive 
But I still will be alive 
But you will do this in my sleep 
And so I will sleep under the covers on the warmest of nights 
For heat moves to cold 
As you fill me with the dark matter the darkness of space 
The darkness of the heavens 
I will be the convergence 
And during the day my waking hours 
I will admit an abundance of light energy and abundance of light 
For I pray for love to consume me
So that I may be an instrument of peace and harmony 
So I pray to you now as always fill me with love

if my love could save the world
How much of a strain would it be to lose myself within you
As we are consumed with the energy of creating ourselves into dark matter that's strains our inner membrane 
No make that my membrane 
For I see you as infinite without boundaries 
And I so want that to be true 
I want to be a vessel of goodness and healing 
But for what is goodness if everything is equal 
So be it that the mission is all about balancing 
Creating uniqueness with harmony and peace 
No solar flares
Though they will always exist as a sign of exhaustion and depletion 
They are the cues for us to come in and care 
I will pray for love to fill me to the extent that my boundaries separate 
And my heart can no longer contain what's within my mind 
I will give pieces of myself splintering in fashion in a manner I am totally unaware 
Till I crumble
Though you tell me I never will  you tell me love is infinite 
Energy of dark and light 
I just have to trust you believe in you enough to allow, to know that you will see me properly 
And sometimes the dark matter will become greater but it's only too diffuse the light 
For in space the heavens it is all there even in the darkness there is living  
And to keep mother Earth alive 
I need to invite the empty spaces the dark spaces of the heavens to enter through me 
So they may pass through the membrane of mother Earth 
So we can restore the balance to the harmony of how first Life Began here on earth 
My only object is to pray for love 
And you will do the rest

I am a being of my own creation 
Of enlightenment 
My being is light energy within from Love 
I am whole without being holy
For I am unique 
To myself without arrogance 
The parts of my being treat themselves with equality 
Sharing the life sources of the universes around me 
I am one within me and within 
I am equal parts creation and existence 
I exist to walk upon the mother earth 
My creation is to love mother Earth 
My soul is in harmony with the universe
My mind and Spirit are pathways that link
I was created and my existence is the pathway to keep mother Earth alive
By asking, praying for love the energy of all existence and creation 
To enter her outer boundaries and feed, nourish and care so that she may continue to live and create
Create without judgment 
And so she has taught me not to judge her actions 
Only to feel the pain when she does not have an abundant of love 
For love is what fuels her creations fruitfully to prosper her equality of being 
Thereby creating an earth where all can exist in harmony

just pray for love 
Just love 
Simple love
Love is energy 
Love is healing 
Love is equalizing 
Love is balance
Of the mind, spirit and soul 
And heart
Love is kind 
The kind of energy that heals the Earth 
The earth that is my mother, my home 
The Earth whose creations are born equally 
Born out of the energy that love is 
So I pray deeply for love 
To love 
Asking it to enter me with all its energy
Love is not a person, place or thing 
Love is simply existence
And so I pray for love
Just love to surround me and be within me
To fill me with so much energy of love
That my being can emit love to those around me 
So that they begin to heal
Without me ever having to ask are you broken

as I lay down to sleep 
With the thought of you
against my back
I feel warm and safe
Knowing you are near 

even as I roll away 
Tumbling into the world of dreams
I still can find you
Holding me
Guiding me
As we explore the unknown

The paths we take 
In the town 
Where I was misdirected 
And blocked from crossing certain sectors 
Have been open to me now that you've taken my hand

I am learning so much more about myself 
From a world distinctly different from my waking 
In your realm my perceptions are tested
I am pushed to overcome the Inquisition of who I am and who I can become both here and there

You are still secretive 
And your intent still perplexes me
For I do not know what you are grooming me 
To be or follow

But now that I have seen your face and held your hand 
I wonder if I have been cloaked from you 
Have either of us really seen the other before now

Are we both afraid of being vulnerable
And have we spent all this time just learning what it is like to trust and to believe in something you cannot see or hold

you have been cloaked 
For so long
Hiding your image from me 
With your hood dropped
I still find it hard
To envision your face when we are apart
But the feel and sight of your hand in mind is engraved 
For that is when I felt acceptance 
 the strength of two limbs 
Creating The strokes 
the image of tree bark 
That made me feel I was allowed to look up forever

I just wanted you to know 
that I appreciated you
To be seen in public unveiled our hands clutching without fear and repercussion from others
Unmasked our emotions revealed
Before our intentions explained
We held a family conference 
Listening to the thoughts of others gently letting them comprehend our Union

So I just wanted to thank you for the sacrifices and changes you made and your willingness to become part of my family

looking out 
Looking in
I see so much more of me 
And less there is to be
If I keep isolating behind paper curtains 
The compass is just a circle 
I keep spinning around 
Lost in the direction of finding who I am
But there will always be uncertainty in The who
For who is infinite 
undefinable 
for there is no end 
to who I am
 For who I can become
changes with every breath
every heartbeat
And every step I take
no matter what direction
I cannot go on circling 
For the hawk is always scanning for a landing or a meal
It does not remain airborne forever
So I too cannot live within the space of my mind forever without falling 
And without direction and focus I will never see where I could  fall and come out unbroken

a child realizing their own voice 
As if hearing it for the first time 
I type just by speaking
Adjusting to the thought 
And the sight of it 
For now the voices, the words
Are more than colors
Swirling and dancing behind my eyes
Waiting for them to descend to my fingertips
I look at my nail beds
Anticipating the greens of foliage and coral reefs 
vaporizing 
As they are not being placed on paper by pencil, pen or paint 

The page appears black and white
Almost stagnant
As there is no mist
I will have to learn
How to bring color my voice 

I was wondering how I would feel 
To be at your door once again 
Knocking endlessly
fearing no response
As if I were a hurricane 
Knowing you were sheltering 
Within your mind
Thinking it was a safe place 
Pretending I would pass 
Without any rain falling
From your eyes 
Or my heart